Part 136- Short Check in

 Hi. I’m not really sure what I want to write, so I’m just gonna go with the flow. To be honest, I don’t even know why I suddenly felt like posting. Maybe because I haven’t posted in a while, aside from Sunday. Otherwise, I’m not sure. What should I write about? Everyday life, recent topic? I’m not sure. Things have changed around here. ( Gosh why does this sound like a diary entry?) Just last week Governor Abbot announced that masks were not mandatory and stores can fill up with the normal size. I guess it’s a bit of a personal treat, seeing that March 2nd was Texas’ Independence Day. People have been taking advantage of that, and over the weekend, I saw a couple people not wearing masks. We can’t complain though. I had actually expected more people to not be wearing masks but apparently not. Just a few picked out from the crowd. 

Ummmm, apart from that, nothing else. I’ve been writing a lot lately. Not just on “When Can I See You Again” but also a short story series called “Missing Piece”. This one’s a more relationship-emotion-based story, focusing on the bond between 21-year-old Abyssinia-Nia- Eswaran and her 5 stepbrothers- Rune, Evander, Abraxas, Cronus, and Kadon. Obviously, I’m a stickler for rare, mythical names. I literally spent a whole 2 hours researching the perfect names for the boys after 20 minutes of finding a name for the main character. (Nia.) I dedicate myself to writing stories with odd, unique, mythical names for the characters. There will, not be a story that doesn’t have some rare name. 

The reason I brought this up is that I can’t seem to focus on ideas. You see, I had such a good idea and was so excited for “When Can I See You Again”, but started losing motivation. I soon got the idea for Missing Piece and started working on it. But now, I have another story idea. It’s an action-based one that I got inspired by from a short series I finished reading. Like, I just finished, and my mind is in SHAMBLES, absolute shambles after reading that. It was so good and such an amazing thriller that I’m just, blown by the ending. The ending was REALY simple but the story and concept and plot were just so good that it really breaks my heart to have it end. That’s where my idea comes from. And this is where my problem is.

I’m not focusing clearly on ideas. As much as I want to at least get down a few thoughts on a document for this idea, I’m trying to hold myself back. I already have two storylines I’m working on, and I don’t want to start writing a third that I’ll most likely stop paying attention to soon. Plus, I want to actually get somewhere with my plots and ideas before working on a new one. If I start working on a new idea, I’ll get caught up in that one until I lose motivation ( which happens after a few weeks) and then feel bland and with no mood to write on that story, or the other two. Sooooo….you see where my mind is right now. Shambles and mixed-feelings. 

< Minor Side Thoughts: Me fangirling warning>

And, a minor side-note. I’ve recently had BTS’s Born Singer stuck in my head and I have DEFINITELY NOT been crying every time I hear the song. ( I read English lyrics while listening.) The song is so good, even though it’s really old, and it makes me cry because it’s such a from-heart and experience song. Recently (a few months ago) they received their first-ever Grammy Nomination after a long time, and found out a few days ago they will be performing there. The song makes me cry because the song talks about their struggles as they became idols, and now those struggles were worth it. ( I’m fangirling so much right now, I’m sorry! ) But here’s the first few lyrics of the song- translated- so you know what I mean. 

I’m a born singer,  A belated confession ( I Swear)
The mirage that always seemed so far away is now before my eyes ( It’s here)
I’m a born singer, A belated confession 
But I’m so happy ( I’m good)

{Suga} The very first stage we stood under the name Bangtan
I revisit how we felt about our first stage 3 years ago
Still I’m nothing different from a rural Daegu rapper but
I wrote the word “pro” on top of “amateur”  
While rapping and dancing on the stage I wanted so badly
I feel yet alive, the tiresome trip to work and back home
I can withstand such troubles because my people are watching me
Because even if my body hurts, the cheers come rolling in…

Favorite Part-
{RM} And let the haters on me It’s a day job they’ve always been at
While you were teasing the keyboard I fulfilled my dreams 
Sunglasses, hairstyle I know why you ridicule me
In any case, it’s me who’s gone further than you at age 20

Born Singer– (It’s a stage mix- watch with captions)

Translation – English translation

Alright, alright. I just fangirled there for a couple of minutes but it was worth it. I needed something to write about and I needed to write out my emotions for this song anyway. But, I do recommend it. It’s really good and so heart-felt. But, anyway, I’m out. Bye!!!!!

Part 132- So…Hi?

I have no idea what to write, so yeah. I wasn’t planning on writing in the middle of the week but, things change. The best topic for a short post is some random topic. ( I think.) Even though I don’t have anything to write about, I have a question. I know that I’m still a kid, not yet a teen or whatever, but I really want to use curse words in my stories. Hear me out first! I don’t say any bad words and aren’t planning to anytime soon, but I really want to. There are always the regular words to use instead such as “dang” or “heck”, but when writing, I don’t really feel like those words give the proper emphasis and tone I’m looking for. ( Maybe that’s because I read young adult books. I’m not sure.) Here’s an example. ( Taken from my own story.)

Replacing Word:
” Dang girl. How are you so happy all the time?” Evans asked.
Curse word:
” Damn girl. How are you so happy all the time?” Evans asked. 
Here, I can’t really feel the proper tone I’m trying to create when I’m using “dang”, but can when using d-a-a-m-n. It’s not about wanting to curse, but instead for the tone. I’m not gonna use any REALLY REALLY bad ones, but instead the ones instead of dang or heck. It’s okay if it’s not the best idea and if I shouldn’t, but I just wanted to know. I’ve tried experimenting with it once or twice, and I personally find it better, but I can always keep using the regular words and wait. 
Anyway, aside from that, I don’t know what to talk about. Oh, this is really random, but I’ve started using contacts. ( I know, I know. This is not a diary but a blog post.) 
It’s been about a week or two since I’ve started using them, and it’s pretty cool. Sometimes it’s not that efficient, taking about an hour to get them in, but it’s definitely worth it. You get a wider range of clear vision without having to move your head in every direction and really helps in preventing you from crying. They also don’t fog up when drinking soup. There are a lot of great pros from contacts, but I still prefer glasses. They are much easier to wear and take off and are sometimes pretty stylish. Plus, you don’t have to go around all day, avoiding rubbing your eyes, and feeling like there is something in your eye. Well, there is something in your eye.
( Once you wear glasses for a while, it’s really shocking to see your face without them.) Even though I’m kinda used to contacts, I still get fears of irritating my eye or even somehow getting it stuck in my eye for the rest of my life. But, over time I’ll get better and those fears will start to go away. But, I definitely recommend trying them out. 
Well, that was a pretty random blog. I really didn’t have anything to write about so I just wrote what was in my head. But, like, I wanna know. Is it okay if I use some curse words in my stories, or should I wait until I’m older? Anyway, I hope you are well, and bye~. 

Part 90- Fantastic Friday

Hello everyone, today marks 102 days left until teh 2020 Presidential Elections. I can’t tell you, how great today has been. One, it is Friday. Two,  have all my HW for Marathi Shala ready, graded and I did REALLY WELL on it, and my story which I am going to be presenting ( Oh God) because I left it at a cliff hanger, is written and pre-checked ahead of time because last week I didn’t present it because my teacher sort of forgot. Anyway, on Thursday I finished all of my Math Kumon- Level J and yesterday finished all my Reading Kumon, III ( I, 2), and had no packets today. That saved me about half an hour of time, AND, my violin lesson was extremely fun as I am learning a new song and getting BETTER at my shifting scales. My friends and I are going to be making our own youtube channel with videos and stuff. Right now it’s just being set up and trying out uploads of videos. Dad approved the fact that I can be in them even if they are public, and I am super excited about that project. I’m trying out vlogging right now as I am filming myself blog, for a productive video. I didn’t have that much stuff to be productive about today, so this is like, my only recording.  I feel so professional right now. Oh, and ALSO, my Kumon certificates came yesterday. There is like a rank, Bronze, then Silver, Gold, and then Platinum. Platinum is sort of the highest level. Usually, I’m a Gold student which is good, but not the best, but my Math award came out as PLATINUM THIS TIME!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!

It’s unbelievable how so many things can happen in a single day, and be good at the same time. This pandemic is such a benefit as well, as I wouldn’t have been able to get Platinum without being able to do 10 pages every day with so much free time, nor be able to start a channel with my friends, nor be able to finish my book series, nor be able to improve so much in violin, and so much more. I know that this blog may be a bit rubbish as it doesn’t talk about a lot of INTERESTING stuff, but I just wanted to share my day, and I hope everyone else has an amazing and fabulous day like mine. I just hope that Marathi SHala will also be as good as my day. One can only wait and see, or go time travel in the future and probably disrupt the time strand.